"like the sun swallowed up by the earth..."

"until You came
i was just the same
as everybody else
whoever saw the light and turned away

You love me now
You loved me then
and every now and again
You show me how it would be if i'd gone the other way

after all this time i've come to find my soul's fragility
but You've rectified my frailty by Your strength

it's like the sun swallowed up by the earth
like atomic bombs in reverse
as if a glass could contain the sea
that's the way You are in me
that's the way You are

now here i stand looking back
to the way things used to be
but i will never be alone again

You're with me
and now i see
what it means to me
to be a part of such a mystery

after all this time i've come to find my soul's fragility
but You've rectified my frailty by Your strength

it's like the sun swallowed up by the earth
like atomic bombs in reverse
as if a glass could contain the sea
that's the way You are to me
that's the way You are..."

~ "the way You are"... the afters

I so love this song... it describes so well the way God is and how He is so big. It tells about how He changes us and how He fills us... School's starting on Monday, and this semester is no different from any other, in that I want to have an impact. I want to not just leave an impression on the people there for a little while, but I want to really make an impact on the lives of the people I come in contact with. I want, when I walk into the school, for it to be like this song... just like God is for me... I want Him to be that through me too. Like the sun swallowed up by the earth. Like atomic bombs in reverse. As if a glass could contain the sea. I want what He is to me to be something uncontainable. I want to be the one that holds Him high, even when nobody else does. Throughout my last semester there, I had the opportunity to get to know a lot of the Campus Crusade students, and a lot of them were great, but at the same time... a lot did not live out what they claimed with their mouths. Actions speak louder than words. If we don't live what we say, then it is not real. See James 2; he has a lot to say about dead faith. I want to hold Him high and give Him praise, even when it might not be the popular thing to do. That is what I'm choosing to do. It's been my goal of each semester that I've been in school... but somehow it's a renewed goal this time. My goal is to not just share with my life and my actions and by what I do & don't say, but to go and initiate conversations in which I can share. I've gotten a lot out of the Way of the Master dvds, and in California a few weeks ago, I had the opportunity to put some feet to what I'd been hearing over and over and learning. The opportunities I had didn't really go as I'd planned, but it was still so great to go and share like that. That is a goal I have for this semester... hold me to it... please. Accountability is such a blessing.

"i want to be the one that holds You high
i want to be the one that gives You glory – only
i want to be the one that holds You high
i want to be the one that brings You praise"

~ "hold You high"... by the tree