that's when i'll give up..

"no heartbeat is always steady
angels have halos already
please - don't think you're proving yourself all the time
i don't need you to be perfect
i know the wait will be worth it
you and me, baby, we're only just learning to shine

you should know
this my love
how far i'll go
here's when i'll give up..

when the sun is coming up at midnight
when the clocks have all run out of time
when the snow falls in june
that's when i'll give up on loving you
when the earth is finished spinning around
when it's raining up instead of down
when a dream can't come true
when the rivers all run out of blue
that's when i'll give up on loving you

you'll never run out of chances
i don't need you to have all the answers
love isn't something that has to be put to the test

love like this
can't be undone
i'm telling you
if the day should come

when the sun is comin' up at midnight
when the clocks have all run out of time
when the snow falls in june
that's when i'll give up on loving you
when the earth is finished spinning around
when its raining up instead of down
when a dream can't come true
when the rivers all run out of blue
that's when i'll give up on loving you

as you're walking through the world
you gotta know
i'll be with you everywhere you go
you can spread your wings or run back to my arms
i will always hold you in my heart, baby

you'll always be
a part of me
baby can't you see

when the sun is comin' up at midnight-
when the clocks have all run out of time-
when the snow falls in june-
that's when i'll give up on loving you..
when the earth is finished spinning around-
when it's raining up instead of down-
when a dream can't come true-
when the rivers all run out of blue-
that's when i'll give up on loving you..."

"that's when i'll give up (on loving you)"... recorded by natalie grant

I so love the poetry of this song.. these words hold such a promise..
Don't we all want to be loved like this? Sure, it's a "love song".. you could have somebody sing it in your wedding.. But besides just being love like that, like between two people you can see with your eyes.. this song is a beautiful picture of the way God loves us. So unconditionally. Whether we spread our wings or run back to His arms, He loves us. We don't have to prove ourselves, we don't have to be perfect. We don't have to put on an act. God loves us perfectly.

And.. the way God loves us.. we're meant to love each other in the same way. Without condition. True love is love without condition. There is no price. If the other person messes up, our love is to still be there for them. And when we slip and fall, they need to be there for us too.

I read this passage in a book the other day...
"'What if I don't want to be in love?' [Tom asked].
'What do you mean? Of course you want to be in love. You're human.' [Mikal answered]."
(~ Ted Dekker, Black, page 76)

See... we all want to love and be loved. We all want to be "in love".. It is so human of us to want that. Which is not to say that it's wrong of us. God created us to have this desire in our hearts for love. God wants us to love and be loved...

Honestly, the thought never even crossed my mind until just now that I'm writing this the day before Valentines Day. How silly is that.. didn't even think about it.. But then, I didn't really know what turn this post was going to take when I started writing. I only knew I needed to share that song.

Anyway, as we are in the season of valentines, red and pink hearts, chocolate, roses, and all.. I don't personally have somebody in my life who I'm close to like that. I don't have a boyfriend, and I never have had one. But that doesn't bother me. ".. I know the wait will be worth it, you & me, baby, we're only just learning to shine.." God's timing is always best. At this moment, He's still growing me into the woman He wants me to be, and the woman my "Gil" needs me to be. He's still growing my "Gil" too. I'm trusting God for all of that. It gives this song a whole new aspect.. sing it to the one you are going to love. Maybe I've met my "Gil".. maybe I haven't. Maybe I've met him but I just don't know it's him yet. God knows though. He's taking care of it for me, working out each little detail, and I don't have to worry about it. He'll take care of me always, because God is forever the truest Love I could ever have.